Hey!!!! Bet anyone reading this but Chad thinks I died or something.  Not died, just busy, only seven more weeks until I graduate and I still need to find a job and stuff.  *sigh* wish, Chad just would have looked out of state this summer, but no he wanted to try to keep me close to my family. I understand that, but really, I love him and want to be with him.  It don't matter were.  There are phones, I can still talk to my family.  I'm did he even stop to think that I do hardly get to see my family as is.  Talking on the phone a couple times a week is alright with me, hell haven't even seen mom since I came back to tech this term.  Being in another state wont make a difference, but oh will its in the past now.  I just really hope one of us can find a job.  I want to start my life with Chad as soon as possible.

Ok, another thing I want to get off my chest.  I am poor.  I always have been.  It is just part of my life.  Nether good nor bad, it just is.  Sometimes I think Chad don't really understand that.  I didn't have much. Hell at some points I didn't have anything.  I sometimes feel like even after college nothing is going to change, I will still be poor, barely making. When I finish college, and start my life, it will be hard for me.  Yes, I know everyone is a little scarred of going out on their own for the first time, but I am down right terrified. Being poor has "sheltered" me from some stuff that others had to deal will.  It as also coursed the some problems.  The one I like to point out would be this second childhood thing I have been doing.  But that isn't what I meant to talk about.  What I was trying to being up is this. I hear I am siting her, typing way on this dumb site, I should be studying.  I have a Business Law test, Wednesday, I haven't studied or anything. I am only hurting myself by doing this.  Maybe I am afraid of success, I have heard of that before.  Maybe I don't really want to be happy. grrr. I don't know.  I love Chad, and I can only hope that been with him, will help me get past these dumb fears of mine.

Hello Everyone,

Yestorday was a good day, Chad came here to see me. We played video games, sleep, went out to dinner (yum, Wendy's) had some fun.  That pretty much sums up my whole day.  Got work done on Adv Sanatry before he come, but nothing after he left.  Instead, I reread "Power of the Pharaoh" it is a REALLY good Yugioh fan fiction. Probably the second best fan fiction I have ever read, "Best Defence" a Harry Potter/ Yu Yu Hasha crossover is my favarate. ("Power of the Pharaoh can be found on fanfiction, but "Best Defence" got deleted) Don't worry Chad your story is my favarate, Yugioh with dueling fic. I haven't had time to work on my own though, got some stuff done over my "much to short for some stuff/much to long for others" break. I think I will try to get some work done this week.  

Today has already been fun, sleep until 1.  Got up and put on some coffee, and forgot to put grounds in.  Now I have a pot of hot water, darnit.  oh well, put on a new pot, remembed the grounds this time, ^-^. Well another day, another homework assignment, or five, to do, LOL.  Oh well, guess that is the price of being in my last term in college. Guess I should get my shower and get started on them.

OXOX~ Cindy